The materialism of this wedding is wearing on me. The amount of money Chris and sheryl can spend without any worry or care is frustrating to me and Sheryl's filter about expressing that freedom is vexing. She is not a bad person. She is very beloved by her family and that points to someone who is connected to family. She works hard at her job and is bright in that field. She's an excellent cook and homemaker and loves my brother. I don't know if it's her flightiness and privilege that bother me or her subtle classism... probably all of it. I worry that Chris will struggle with this marriage as well, though I don't worry that she would ever be unfaithful. Her mother is very sweet and kind and I believe that those caring traits will be a part of her motherhood. OUr family is so small and hers is so large. I just feel completely out of sorts. The make-up, hair, fancy spots for everything... it's all wild. Even her remarks about the cash bar are wild. Uggh. I need to remember that I am not marrying Sheryl and that Chris is very, very smart and obviously loves Sheryl very much. I wish that Chris and I were closer and that we had a more natural vibe with one another. Matt didn't even know he was the best man. What a weekend this will be!