Quinn summer transitions

He wrapped his arms around Quinn and as always I was reminded of how tall and strong he is, but how gentle and loving he is with his nephew. The final breakfast with Matt was really difficult. Quinn had such an all over weekend, napping early on Saturday but not getting to sleep until nearly 11 that night. Then, the following day he got up around 9, took a fake car nap on the way home from Laura's family picnic and then didn't nap until 5. He slept until almost 8 and then again wasn't in bed until 12:30. He napped on the way home from Iowa and then it was, maybe, an evening of about 10??? The poor man is just so emotionally tired and also physically lost in all this. It was hard for me to form the words to comfort Quinn as we left the Drake Diner. Tears were streaming down my face and Luke respectfully allowed me to cry in peace. Quinn is having random stress attacks it seems where he desperately wants to eat, or I can't leave him (say, so he could go to the park with Dad and I could nurture my overly-filled stomach). Yesterday is asked, "Where is Matt?" and then told me that i had to stay with him. He also has taken to saying he "misses" me. Matt told him that he would miss him when he left. I think it was good that Quinn saw Matt pack up and go, saw the process of unpacking and said good-bye. But, for all of that, it doesn't mean that his life isn't very different now. The room that used to be Matt's now has a red computer desk and the old couch. The dining room is filled with items for the garage sale we're going to have tomorrow and the living room is nearly empty. I thought for sure that we would be able to empty Quinn's closet into all of this new space we would have, but already, it's filling up. He has so little room and so little territory that was purely his. I hope that in his new space he is flourishing and that he realizes all that he has gained in his own home. In little things, I miss him and all that he did for us. His physical strength when it came to moving things, the lawn mowing and the moment to moment child care he provided. I also like that he allowed me to decompress or vent about things, if only for a moment, and I knew that he was only going to listen and not judge me. Luke and I are back and forth being on edge ever so slightly and very good together. I am sure this means new things for us as well. Lana was hear that last for what seemed like a giant venting session that she needed. She's been spending lots of time with Bobbi, who has been terribly ill with her pregnancy. Lana is at her wit's end with it all and admits to not even "liking her". She says that being a mother in law is the hardest thing she's ever had to go through. Gracious. What to do, what to think. The cool Eric Carle game that Toni got Quinn has turned into fun body awareness for Quinn. Now, he'll spontaneously want to wiggle his toes, turn his neck, bend his neck, raise his shoulders... very fun stuff. More and more, we chat back and forth and I love the communication. Quinn is wearing pull-up's now and we just purchased a different kid's toilet from IKEA to see if he likes it.